welcome*17*girl*sunny island singapore*darkhair darkeyes*sweet&sour*my name means sunrise*this is bits&pieces of my life*life is a game dying to win*what else dya wanna know*come fly with me, in the hot air balloon, over mountains plains and sea,through the brighten day, and the moonlit night..*
Lomo Wonderland @ Esplanade WONDERLAND, the first pan Asian Lomographic exhibition, opened in Singapore on Friday November 15th, 2002 at The Esplanade, Theatres on the Bay. It features 42m of Wonderland lomowalls from 6 countries: Taiwan, Malaysia, Hong Kong, Korea, Japan, and Singapore featuring works from lomographers around the world. (it's replaced the quirky flags-made-of-hair exhibition)
its funny how inanimate things can change the course of people's lives. well it wasn't much of a story but i caught the lomo bug about a year back when my couz was back on his term break n brought along his Lomo Kompakt Automat. oh how all hell broke loose when i loaded my first roll of film. snap this. snap that. snap. snap. snap... it was certainly addictive, i went a lil crazy with e camera. it felt so wonderful n liberating to shoot things without even thinkin how e shots would turn out, and how great this small dear lil thingie can create the most wonderful visuals when printed. (mine r still with him..*sulk*)
the lomo isn't a toy. its a tool to liberate yourself, like a metaphor 4 life. we all need somethin, a catalyst, to show us the way to break away from e routines of our daily lives. all e while we're doin things this way n that, e way we were taught n expected to do, but when we experience e Lomo, its a sudden feelin so uprooted from convention n we start to look at everything in a different perspective. i know, relating a lil camera to how we shld run our lives may sound a tad offbeat, even loony? but i guess its a gd start for us to live e way we've always wanted to.
gdday!
i watched singing in the rain last nite at the esplanade to celebrate my daddy's b'day. it was gd, but not fantastic. typical feel-gd musical...u've seen one u've seen em all. cheorography was nice though... im definitely inspired to take dance lessons after the stupid As. some guy actually turned up in a tuxedo with that 2 tailed coat! i know we're supposed to dress up, but that..?!
moi misquote:"hey, the durian's eyes don't look that bad up close at nite yea?"
this is supposed to be the WORLD'S FUNNIEST JOKE Two hunters are out in the woods when one of them collapses. He doesn't seem to be breathing and his eyes are glazed. The other guy whips out his cellphone and calls the emergency services. He gasps: "My friend is dead! What can I do?" The operator says: "Calm down, I can help. First, let's make sure he's dead."
There is a silence, then a shot is heard. Back on the phone, the guy says: "OK, now what?"
um..hmm..*scrunches up nose* i think i've heard funnier.
redbull is my preferred fluid of e week. i wonder if e stuff really works or is it just a psychological effect?
well all i know is studyin sux, big time!
esp when you see econs essay questions in the exam that make u wonder if u did at all.
yee yen: "i'm on a fast track to a career at 7-11"
darren kor is comin back in dec!! sweet! can't wait to see him again we'll have lots to catch up on. everytime i think of him it also brings back fond memories of those days when we were young n playful n all living together as one big happy family. now him, derrick kor, sara, claire n i can reunite as the Yeo gang haha! :)
but actually he's like very reluctant to return, cos he totally digs australia. i can understand why, but strangely somehow that makes me a slight bit angry.
when i was like 5, i announced i was going to marry my darren kor. hahaha... i've long gotten over that incestuous phase of cos, but he's an awfully gd catch, character wise n all, whoever catches him is one lucky gal (oops do i sound like i'm advertising him? nope sorry he's already picked a lovely gf out of his many admirers!)
me+kor jan2002
:: *luv psychedelico* 2:10 AM [+] ::
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i don't geddit. why do ppl keep callin up to ask if i wanna meet up when they know the As are right round the corner? and everyone says the same thing - COFFEE! like suddenly so many ppl are into caffeine? i know tho i don't go out i still slack alot at home so i shouldn't be that bothered. it was flattering, but now its gettin really annoying. i almost think it rude. urgh.
i regret not taking a neoprint, to commemorate my last sat out for a longgg time. ^_^
we talked bout the whole dr ong saga, and i'm wondering how charmaine n sherryl are. haven't seen em for yonks. no surprise since no more clubbing.
he let me in on how koji and some of e other jap boys were seriously such shy guys with girls, like how it was hilarious when he asked charmaine to talk n flirt with em at zouk on fri to see how'd they react, well one actually hid behind another, after a while they made some excuse bout goin to e dance floor! who could tell underneath that whole cool suave jap exterior huh?
grace drove by with mich to get her fone back, cos her bro lost his fone, so now i only have a sim card. its a very alienated feeling, like i've lost touch with the world! my mum is gonna hit e roof when she finds out. oh btw grace looks so cute with her new hair cut!! really adorable! tho she was like "no no stoppit!" when i told her.
// SUNDAY 03 NOVEMBER // EVE OF DEEPAVALI //
// ZOUK // CREAM CLUBBING CAPITALS TOUR FEATURING SEB FONTAINE i'm surprised that even grace n can wanna make it down tonite. well they prob have been muggin away, but i haven't. many ppl tryin to instigate me into going. evil ppl. BUT NOOOOOOO I WILL RESIST!! I WON'T SUCCUMB TO THE DARK SIDE! EVEN IF ITS SEB FONTAINE! oh bullocks, we'll see later if i succeed in my struggle.
he wanted to watch samsara *hmm* but of cos i'd neva be able to pass for 21. Mr Deeds wasn't showing anymore, which left us with nothing worthwhile to watch, so ineey-meeny-money-mo, ballistic ecks vs sever was it. i'm not gonna give any rating for this darlin, becos u see its not quite a movie, e script is almost non-existent. it's just a big waste of money displaying cars blowing up, buildings blowing up, big guns blowing ppl up, and lucy liu strutting around cool n unscathed amidst it all.
i miss my girl frens!!!! besides Can, i haven't seen e rest for quite a bit. n it sucks that i'm not the group study type, cos i'll just eat/talk/horse around/stare at pretty gals.
no kidding, i choked on my breakfast this morning. damn those stupid Blazin' Squad morons for ruining my daily partake of nutella. i looked up to see on mtv this group of white boys wavin their hands in e air bouncin along, tryin very hard to imitate that whole "yo wassup y'all, we're so cool, we're so hiphop" nigger attitude, each trying to hog their share of screen space, all the while proving that they cannot harmonize for nuts. And its not only the poseur dudes, i don't know what their record company/producer/director was thinking. the filmin was like a blair witch III project, one big amatuer lookin vid, with those "funky" effects all gone wrong n totally out of sync with the beat. i thought boyband mtvs were usually glossy slicked up productions, God knows what happened to this one. even the sex appeal wasn't there! see u at the crossroads? i think more like american funniest home videos.
Katrina is the New Face winner!! she looks so gd in the papers today! haha too bad bryan's in some remote part of western australia now, or he'd neva hear the end of it from me! i neva could quite understand why he gave up this hot girl who hit on him for a lil freak like moi. and he'd always just laugh it off. Katrina was neva mean to me at that time so she's a beauty with a gd heart, not one of those vicious bitches, so well i'm happy for her win :)
irritated! irritated! ever since e evil b**** stole my phone at oakie nite, i've had to borrow grace's phone. the exact same model. BUT ITS TOTALLY KONKY N ITS DRIVIN ME NUTS!! even better, since it's spoilt my mum wants to trade it in for me, n she can't understand why i refuse. well cos she doesn't know its not mine! (or she'd really flip)
welcome to Halloween, where all your nightmares are made of. come celebrate, within the humble reigns of our manor, the nite we've all been waiting for - when e dead, undead, and demonic rise up and walk in the realm of the living.
Ok sorry got carried away. we all know halloween to most is just like any traditional or religious holiday, another excuse to dress up, play the music loud, and party hard. tho its not actually Oct 30 yet, most r gonna celebrate it tonite. it's probably the only time of the year you can dress like britney or backstreetboys n get away with it.
well seriously, there's inspiration to be drawn from Red Dragon. i watched this prequel to Silence of e Lambs today (since sat is my only go-out day of the week for now sigh) and it's really a good flick, tho abit disturbing. i'll never look at doll's eyes in the same way again! so since last year saw some ppl take a cue from the bloody movie Battle Royale, i was thinkin if anyone would use these 2 ideas for a halloween costume this year...
~ Hannibal e cannibal Lector: wear a metal mask over the lower half of your face and get someone to push u around in a movable cage, or
~ Mr D. aka e Red Dragon: if you dare to walk around naked with a big ugly drawing on your back n butt.
Fellow freaks of nature , twisted children of the mirror ball
beloved disco disciples, power podium pimps, dancefloor
hooligans, fashion fascists and neo music nazis.
I don't think u know what terror is...come let me now show u
it's time to denigrate yourrselves at the feet of yourr disco denizen despot/ess
partake in the frenetic ultraviolent uberfest in order that u, too
might be clubbed to death.
I wish i could be at zouk dressed up in some crazy scary costume partyin with them, like last year!!!! too bad :|
"warning! don't move till the click! sign on the screen disappears!" no wonder.
all hail the next picasso!
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my mum just gave me one of those "serious" talks again, bout how i hafta do my best for the As, study hard, don't go out etc etc. and i always get all defensive n stuff n it always ends up with both of us upset. awful awful. i know she's worried, but i just wish she n dad would just leave me alone for this period of time. and now i wonder whether gettin 6 pts for the Os was such a gd thing after all, cos now they have this mentality that i die-die hafta get 3As. the worst thing is, they're actually right. but i hate it when she tells me i'll lose out in life/ i'll feel inferior to my friends 10 years down the road/i won't be living well if i get even a single B. i beg to differ. what is it about singapore that has parents all hung up about grades? am i gonna be a failure if i dont end up some big shot banker or lawyer? i'm grateful that they don't impose their ambitions on me, they say its up to me, but i can sense their hope underneath it all. prime example - i had to decide between stayin put in acjc or startin anew in algae land (oops, i meant rjc), mum insisted i decide myself, n in the end she was one very happy momma when i chose the dump (ok sorry, rjc, the creme de la creme of jcs in s'pore). her eyes popped wide when i said i was considering a year off before uni instead of half so i could do more stuff. "don't waste time! u'll be behind your frens!" she shrieked. gosh, does half a year really make such a life-or-death difference in a whole lifetime?
well, i don't really know how to put it here nor to my parents, its just that i can't picture myself n i don't want to live my life out livin the whole rat race thing. Yes, its tempting, money does make the world go round, n success is so narrowly defined in s'pore, nonetheless there's a whole world out there for me to explore, learn about, n help, a great deal of things i'd like to experience and enjoy so i can say i've really lived. it sounds rather foolish n idealistic, perhaps even corny, but i hope i'll be able pluck up the courage in me somewhere to choose a different path from the one set before me. for cryin out loud i didn't dare go to poly tho i wanted to haha. even if it means building houses for children in mongolia, or becoming a dj (secret ambition! ),making a film, or living in some cramped apartment in venice few years from now teaching english n earning e bare minimum to get by (i read bt that in e papers somewhere), hey, sounds fun to me, and i'm sure i'll make interesting frens along e way. (let u in on a lame lil secret, i won't mind takin on the bimbo job of an air stewardess cos gettin paid to travel is just plain cool!) oh i don't know, heaps of things on my to-do list, i'm just a free spirit at heart i guess. i think the system here has to gradually change so ppl will dare to follow their dreams, n well then maybe s'pore won't be sucha boring place after that. hee yea, i'm digressing. frankly i'm not quite sure myself what i'm rambling on about.
e way i see it, happiness is the key to longeviity becos even if you were to die e very next moment, you'll die a happy person, knowing that you have lived life the way you wanted. so time is not a factor anymore. doing things that make you a happy person each day. doing happy things will offset those unhapppy moments encountered in our lives. thus you will die more of a contented person with less regrets in life. i said less n not no regrets cos each n everyone of us surely has regrets of some sort in our lives. well, ok, just a last thought, it'd be all the more peachy if i can get married to my true love *ooh, mushy mushyyy* yea watever, i'm a girl, not some asexual hermaphrodite!
so funny. Ronald wanted to show me his convertible (yea quite exciting huh!)
me: but u haven't got your license yet
him: thats true. *pauses* ahh, i'll get my driver to drive it over!
me: ...........
meantime, i'll jus oggle at the neighbour's cute son who drives back for dinna in his own n who's sadly, umm, gay. haha
Holly, my coolest penpal from melbourne, just did this for me ( tho its been like, 2 years already? :P ) she rawks! thx a bunch u're e best! cya there again soon! xoxo
the world is becoming a very dangerous place. we have planes crashin into buildings, ppl blowing themselves up, snipers hiding around, clubs exploding and shootings on campus ( did i mention that if the terrorists responsible for the bombing of sari club in bali r indonesian, they've gotta be the dumbest around ever! talk bout breakin their own rice bowl ). its a neverendin spiral - the more these incidents get played up, the more those disturbed ppl out there will get inspired. now even safe lil s'pore is marked down as "high risk", and my Oasis boys ain't headin our way no more :| Tomo even called on sat to say he was gettin outta zouk cos there was a bomb alert?! turned out to be a prank i guess...but who knows, it could just turn into reality someday. bali blast II? acckkksssss.
i'm stoked!! satoshi tomiie certainly didn't let us down like paul oakenfold did! he spun great! tho they said steve lawler was betta, it was still a pretty good end to all clubbin before the As! plus someone was very sweet tht nite *wat am i gonna do* ^_^
wassup with the Friends finale?? when i do watch it, they leave me with this?! so who did rachel get with? ross or joey? or am i missin out on something? someone please enlighten me i hate not knowin! ( i wish it were joey, cos he's sucha sweetie)
as usual, studyin is a chore. n i could strangle gallen.
~on icq~ him: i am in almost the same state as u. my report dateline is next week and i am not even halfway thru. when i start doing i feel very sian
me: oh yea i totally understand wat u mean.. depressin...jus feel like doin everything else but it!
him: i have to begin doing my powerpoint presentation !!! i am juz sick of doing it
me: well think of the physics n math i hafta do. stuff like gravitation, electric fields, vectors n complex numbers....u'll feel betta bout ur powerpoint presentation
him: study ok? i have to copy and paste my report to powerpoint. sian juz dun feel like doing it. can't wait to get out of skool.
me: u dun feel like copyin n pasting?!?? haha u seriously have a problem!! a much bigger one than me!!!
stress stress! i've been tellin myself "i'll start studyin tomorrow" for like 5 days now. n i still went to catch a movie *bad girl!* ~Serving Sara~ today with *horror!* tomo. talk bout havin no will power. but well i had fun n it was a good movie ^_^
> FRIDAY 11 OCTOBER
> ZOUK : STEVE LAWLER LIGHTS OUT TOUR (UK) - 4 hr set
> SATURDAY 12 OCTOBER
> ZOUK : RENAISSANCE 2002 with SATOSHI TOMIIE - 4 hr set
what am i gonna do?! what bad timing!
i'll start studyin tomorrow.
Last month, a survey was reportedly conducted by the U.N worldwide. The only question asked was : "would you please give your most honest opinion about solutions to the food shortage in the rest of the world?" The survey was a HUGE failure.
In SouthAmerica they did not know what "please" meant.
In Asia they did not know what "honest" meant.
InEastern Europe they did not know what "opinion" meant.
In the Middle East they did not know "solution" meant.
In Africa they did not know what "food meant.
In Western Europe they did not know what "shortage" meant
And in the USA they did not know what "the rest of the world" meant.
he's been back since i ended my prelims. i chose my head over my heart n i'm starting to hate myself.
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last four months were just pretend
And I said,
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
And I said,
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
And when the stars fall I will lie awake
You're my shooting star
:: *luv psychedelico* 10:47 AM [+] ::
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:: Saturday, September 14, 2002 ::
this has gotta be the longgggeeessssttttt week of the year so far. everyday seems to go by in slow mo, and time is just bent on flying past me (er, oxymoron?) so i can't study for the damn prelims n then probably flunk em. i'm allergic to studying. its a health hazard. sometimes i wonder why didn't i just go to poly. sian-ism! no wonder i'm wasting time here. Cancan:"i can't study. im watchin too many taiwanese serials!" post meteor garden craze i guess. oh saw the taiwanese dancers on tv with Vaness at his post hk concert party, it was real sweet "seeing" them again. taiwan next year!!!
some of the best days ever!
Ja's b'day party this coming sat, boy have we got a sexy surprise for her...hahahha!
hee guess wats inside the big heavy box??
whats the deal with 9-11? call me shallow or narcissitic or plain heartless (but i'm really not..), i think they should move on. there's still like this big fuss about it, n i can't forget e months *grumble* when all Time had to offer were 911 reports. speakin of osama...this cute thing cracked me up back then... http://www.madblast.com/oska/humor_bin_new.swf
Ronald's b'day on friday, he brought me to Equinox for dinner, but the whole nite was weird, the food was weird, the PRICES were really weird for portions of that measly size, and well it was just weird with him. But the view was beautiful n we tried lotsa new drinks at the New Asia Bar like this funny test tube mock chemistry-experiment thing with smoke n all. very swanky indeed. the place reminded me of jon's contest, n my encounter with Utt....AhHhHh! guess it was the alcohol, cos by the time i got home i never knew u could miss someone so bad.
lesson of e night ~ its true, money can buy you pleasure but not happiness.
.:SAYING SAYONARA:.
kel+me+tomo+dan+sheh@boontongkee-post-zouk
an upset dr ong says "F*** u're really leavin?!".....
@zouk's fleamarket
@embaro with surprise guest nick shen?!
(he turned out to be a nice down2earth guy)
hahaha...check out this part of yohei's email from LA ~
"Last week, I bought this 1988 Lincoln town car for 700bucks and after 4days of drivin', it fuckin EXPLODED. Had to do combat roll outa the car and duck on the floor while all niggers sayin "wooot" at us. So, I did'nt have time to look for apartment and I have no car. ... "
gee......
:: *luv psychedelico* 12:54 AM [+] ::
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"everytime you go away, you take a piece of me with you."
just can't start muggin in this bad state.
heellloooooo guess who's back in da house ( ok fess up i know u missed me)
since the end of CTs, a whirlwind of stuff have happened. so many memories of people, activities, parties, days n nites out, hilarious incidents n loads of other stuff i can't even begin to start recordin it all down. i'll try...s l o w l y...over time...... just that i've this crazy notion that bloggin jinxes me somehow yea yea further proof i'm a weirdo so we'll see how the next few days go n if i disappear for another month at stretch we'll know i'm right... :) speakin of bad luck...... 1. lost one side of my favourite pair of earrings. called up all the selfridge stores, such pretty earrings, u think there were any left? *grief stricken* 2. eye infection, but i can't help it, i love my black eyeliner! looked like bambi for a while there. gave me a reason to look cool n aloof behind a pair of shades, n stare at ppl without em knowing hahah! 3. how happy i was the weekend had finally arrived....n my high on sat only lasted bout an hr, n while xpress-2 was bringin down the house i was outside takin care of dead drunk Can. oh but it was funny how we had a sloppily hard time moving her around. 4. everyone knows money makes the world go round, its tough that my money disappears really quick these days don't ask me how! 5. parents say lazik op only after prelims or maybe even As. sheesh it was supposed to be done in june i was so excited! n now it keeps gettin postponed n postponed while i turn into a bad case of myopic-ness without any glasses nor contacts.
gotta start studying for prelims. HAFTA START MUGGING FOR PRELIMS! "i was spinning free, whhhooooooa-oa-oa...." that jimmy eat world ditty jus doesn't stop in my head. peace outt.
mich+grace+me @ zouk winebar
yoheidrunk @ centro
yoheispinmeupsidedown @ centro
dawn+me+gail+mich+ja @ cinebowl
tomo+yohei
sheh+me+mybrokenshades
jon's wet n wild b'day bash
i wanna kick at the machine that made you piss away your dreams
and tear at your defenses till there's nothing there but me
your laugh is a disease your love is such a tease
you're dirty and you're sweet
you know you're everything i'll ever need
oh everything you are
falls from the sky like a star. ~googoo dolls~